Right now I want to pick up my phone
and message;
I love you.
Because I still do.
Deeply.
I have no idea why.
Even after all these months.
My heart rules my mind
my heart still loves you.
I have been thinking of days driving across the country to see you. The excitement, the adrenaline and anticipation of seeing you at your door. Your eyes. Oh, those eyes. Your kiss, which had waiting for weeks to touch mine. The need and want of our skin dancing under each other's touch.
I stood on your doorstep today. You looked at home. But all I could think about was stepping in and holding you.
I have been thinking about lazy mornings that could have been and the difference it would have made. Like the early days.
You come to my door. I want to invite you in. I want to know how you are. I am interested in your training. I want to know how you are feeling about your challenge, do you feel ready.
I want to know if you are happy. If you think of me and if so, what do you think?
Are you angry with me... do you regret us?
I dream of days laying in fields with you, cuddling by a river, dancing in open spaces as the sunsets. I dream of our adventure being the one WE dreamed.
Right now I want to tell you so much.
I want to see you laugh.
I want to make you smile.
I want to love you.
